Tuesday, October 28, 2014


A poem of the day to let it be know everything is ok

Tuesday, September 16, 2014


Hello my beautiful and hansome peeps....Today we will be talking about facing fears.Not many people really & truly face their fears and this may sound like me being dramatic but it's not I promise. About 4 1/2 years ago about 2 1/2 months after I started High School. My family moved closer to the high school I was attending so that I could be closer. Well in the evenings after I completed my homework and chores I use to go afternoon walks with my sister & her gf or with friends every day or so. But on this particular day I just wanted wanted to walk alone. So I went on my usual route which was about a block or two around my neighborhood . Earlier that day me & my then bf had gotten into an argument about him cheating which it wasn't the first time but it was indeed the last time for me so I ended what he says was the best thing in his life. Which he was clearly pissed off about.  But back to the walk I was walking down a street a block over from my house When this Burgundy Ford Taurus passed me. I didn't pay it any attention then it passed by again but this time they stopped and 5 guys out if the 6 got out of the car and surrounded me.   When the car stopped I grabbed my phone & dialed 911, and put the phone down by my side as they approached me. They began to call me all out if my name, saying fag this & fagget that sissy this & sissy that  . Now while all this is happening I am still walking as though they are not there which pissed them off then they started grabbing signs out of peoples yards and began to hit me & throw rocks at me.  I tried to run which by the way didn't help the guys that where attacking me started chasing me once I got half way down the street 2 of the guys grabbed me took my phone which still was connected to 911. The 6th guy who was in the car started the car all the guys ran back to the car so I started back running home. As doing as all the guys where back in the car the sped past me they started throwing thing out the windows at me....Now  the reason for this story is this,  that situation had me afraid to go outside and walk at night in fear that they would come back and I wouldn't be lucky to leave with my life. About 2 weeks ago I walked down that same street I was attacked on at night, an I am proud of myself for doing it I conquered the one thing that has scared me since to do even though when my mother asked me that night was I ok & I said yes but I honestly wasn't, but I will leave with this no matter what happens in life that may scare you you can always over come your fears you don't have to let your fear keep you from anything you want to do with your life because it it's just that your life.  If you have any questions or topics that you would like for me to talk about or you want to read about just shot me a quick email to or leave it in the comments section below.

Until Next Time Smile Because Your Beautiful No Matter Who Say Different.

Tuesday, September 9, 2014


Hello my beautiful and hansome peeps....Today we have a topic that I just can't find the words to give it a proper title. But when I think about this subject or situation I think of the following Depression, Darkness, Honesty, Love,Remorse. Honestly I just can't fathom the idea of if I was put in a situation where I was being disowned by my family literally the people who are mentally programmed to love you & care for and about you..I have friends who have been in this situation and they have come out on top with a smile & not allowing anyone to break their spirit. I honestly feel sorry for the parents and people who think being gay,lesbian, bi, or what ever a persons sexual orientation is that it's a choice when it's not. Who would willingly choose to beaten, harassed,humiliated, looked at like you are the scum of the earth. I can honestly say that before I came out to my mom which was something I was planning to do after I   left her house for college. Because I was afraid that she would do the same thing my best friends mom  did to him. When he came out to his mom she gave him to 2 state and didn't want to have anything to do with him.  I personally couldn't have as strong as he was & is and I am so blessed to have him as my friend . But to not make this a big depressing mess , but the key to what I'm saying is this I come from a very religious background and even though my family may not like or agree with my life and the way I live my life they support me and love me and I am blessed and thankful for them. But my point is this no matter who you are just love yourself and learn to be comfortable in your own skin and for your friends & family if they can't love and except you for who you are they they are not the type of people you need in your life. You need people who will build you up not break you down. If you have any questions or topics that you would like for me to talk about or you want to read about just shot me a quick email to or leave it in the comments section below.

Until Next Time Smile Because Your Beautiful No Matter Who Say Different.

Thursday, August 21, 2014


Hello my beautiful and hansome peeps....Today we are going to talk about Life Changes. So here is the  dilemma I'm being faced with, I recently graduated high school C/o 2014 . But it seems like any & everyone has something to say to me about what I need to do now...Wait did anyone think that I might have plans of what I want to do with my life. I am goint to college and Yes it's far away from home and That's OK I will get home sick but that will be all the more reason for me to accomplish my goals so that in 10 years from now I will be doing What o want to do for the rest of my life. I refuse to give up it's not even an option. I feel that by me doing this I can provide for my family when they can't provide for themselves. I want to give my mom something back for everything the had done for me. I want to be able to give my mom her dream house in the east Hampton's on the beach front. An I can't to that by staying where I am. I feel like where I live there is nothing for me. An I may be wrong & That's OK but I can't do What I feel I was born to do living in Alabama. I'm doing this to give back I'm doing this because to many people give up on their dreams before they even begin and I refuse to be a statistic another percentage of people who never tried or gave up because it got to hard.I'm ready for any  opticals that will be in my way because it will all pay off in the end.

Until Next Time Smile Because Your Beautiful No Matter Who Say Different.                                  

Saturday, August 9, 2014


Hello my beautiful and handsome peeps. Today's topic is a requested topic about Marriage, & let me clarify that yes I know I'm 20 & not married but I do have a clear understanding of what it is. Marriage is a union of two individuals becoming one, but that is also why some married couples argue because one person or both people are being selfish and you can't be selfish when you become a team, because there is clearly no I on team. You must work together to achieve greatness. Marriage is a beautiful thing  just like love   is a beautiful thing whether it's between a man & woman, Woman & Woman,  or even Man & Man. Love doesn't see gender or color. People say or think. An I hate when people try and use the Bible against people to tell them they are going to hell for being the person they where born.  The way I was raised and brought up  that you don't judge someone by what you see . You between you & your spouse should be handed in your home in a non violent way in the word of a wise woman "USE YOUR WORD" fighting literally solves nothing. Love like your life depends on it Listen like your favorite song is playing & Communicate like it's your last conversation.  But I want to thank one of my amazing peeps for this topic. ( If you yes you have a topic you would like to read about email me you topics,ideas,or thoughts to & put in subject bar Blog Topic )

Until Next Time Smile Because Your Beautiful No Matter Who Say Different points.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014


Hello my beautiful and hansome peeps....Today we are going to talk about Respect, and I'm not just talking about the 1967 hit song of Aretha Franklin. But the meaning behind the some or the message that you receive from the song. Everyone needs to have respect for themselves and for others. Because no one like or wants to be around  people who lack respect for themselves and others.  Now let's get a clear understanding of what respect is. Respect is a feeling of deep admiration for someone or something elicited by their abilities, qualities, or achievements. So now that we know what respect is why do so many people not have respect?  What can we do as a human race to get more people to respect themselves?   I personal feel that respect is taught at home as you grow up not just something you can just pick up at your nearest store. But I want know what you think give your feed back or your point of view on the topic. Let's do this in the comments section below or you can even email me with your comments.

Until Next Time Smile Because Your Beautiful No Matter Who Say Different points.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014


Hello my beautiful and hansome peeps....Today we are going to talk about Lieing  & Cheating.This topic  is one that many people have fallen victim to and no one ever deserves to be lied to it cheated on. For some people cheating couldn't bother them at all,.but some people are not that fortune to have an "I Don't Care" attitude. An that sucks for alot of people who begin to love or fall in love irregardless to their flaws... when you lie to a person even if the relationship is just starting and they found out you lied how can you expect them to trust you if you lie about anything. I honestly would prefer you tell me the truth and me get hurt from knowing the truth other than finding out you lied and that can be even more painful. An everyone doesn't process pain very well  or the same way for that matter I have know people who do stupid things when they are hurt.  I have know people who have tried committing suicide from a broken heart or cut themselves to "Feel All The Pain Go Away" by watching blood run and drip from their open  wound. Nothing in life is worth you or anyone taking their life over because I promise you it will get better it make take time but it will get better. In my own opinion and experience if it gets better fast it's going to get worse even faster.  The next few statements are for people who lie and cheat, Is it worth someone loosing their life?.......Why not just be honest and tell the person you are with that's it's not working? So you can do what ever your heart desires. Why lie to make a person feel better or to tell them what they want to hear?.......

Until Next Time Smile Because Your Beautiful No Matter Who Say Until Next Time Smile Because Your Beautiful No Matter Who Say Different